my heart is broken
and its fallen to the floor
i don’t even want it
anymore…

weeping acid pain
acrid and oozing;
the emptiness of my
illusion…

theres nothing left
nowhere to hide
this pain is eating me
alive…

I am nothing
and in darkness i dwell
crestfallen soul’s fate-
…fell…

~hunger~

you devour my spirit
like a hungry animal
and i submit my entire being
to you…in ecstasy

my longing has turned …
for i am forever open to your touch
and your breath on my skin
as if my own body were yours

we are but travelers on this plane
and my energy opens to you
like a fresh flower to the sun
or better yet… to the stars above

and i linger here, for you, with you
in a quiet repose of everlasting love
and desire
and you linger within me, ravaging

your spirit is too strong for my body
and i glow with your light
from my core
and my body does your will

quivering i sit within the walls of my home
waiting for your return to me
waiting for your hunger
to find me… once again

~on the vernal equinox~

daughter of Gaia, mistress of the mountain!
she washes her hair beside you
her golden tresses falling upon your breast
filling your heart with soft smelling fragrance

look for her, in despair and darkness
her green flowing dresses cover you
in peace and in love
embracing the pain from you

her arms, like flowing streams,
soothe your tired soul, quench your parched throat,
ease your weary body…

she is the sun that warms your heart
and the wind that calls your name
and the bird that gives you sight

look down from the heavens and see her beauty!
for it is yours to behold

all desire and destruction
fall within her
the ground shakes with her tears;
flowers open to her touch…

love her still… as she is yours
forever near, forever close, forever true

her heart does not waver
as a mountain is not moved…
as the stars line the sky….
her love is true

~golden statue~

I woke to lips pressing mine
Like spring dew that clings to a blade of grass
And my heart was filled
With deep green

Soul energy swirls together
merging Color and light
Deep love’s secret void
Of forgetting and remembering

And these Long held songs in my heart
Resonate within me today
What was once longing
Is now simply sweet music of the soul

Golden light exits me
Leaving me glowing like a statue
Steady and unmoved
Quiet and true

~given what we get~

i asked the universe for a sign
it was given…
though my heart is heavy with sadness
I cannot now go back and ask for something different

…we are given what we get…

Life is suffering and the heart must be strong
enough to live with separation
and pain of loneliness
inorder to fully embrace light

…we must first travel through darkness…

i accept my fate, as resigned as i can be
to this pain, which will walk as my friend
for a time
hope lingers no more for me

I search for you in the sky
But you’re not there
The heavens are empty of you
And my heart no longer flutters

…Where have you taken your light?…

Within me is darkness and despair
The longing is now covered in pain
And emptiness roams my halls

~ancient energy~

Ancient energy links my soul
To memories long erased
By time
….Footprints only found now
Within the heart

I see Isis shining in the distance
Holding the unbreakable bond
Like a scepter
In her glowing hand
…Reminding me

Promises never forgotten;
Words yet unspoken…
Sit Heavy and true..
Upon my mind
Like incense

Linking me back to you.

there once was a girl who reached for the stars.. she tried and tried to touch them…
alone, in the darkness, she would speak to them, whispering sweet nothings
of how it will be when she comes home

everyday the sun would rise, the birds would sing…the light of day overtaking…
and sadness would fill her heart, all she desired was to be with them
to feel their light upon her

one day when she could take no more of their leaving… she devised a plan
to fly up up up to them… her stars… and hang onto them with all her strength
how wonderful she thought, to be with them forever

So she built beautiful wings of gold, and gossamer flowers glowing
she told them not to worry, she would be coming soon
upon wings of starlight flowing

when the time was right, she dressed her arms in wings
and took off from a start… she ran and ran until she caught the air
leaving all she knew below her

The darkness to which she flew was cold… the lonliness of height
through countless stars she flew alone…. an isolating flight
no star could she call her home- no star claimed as her own

why? thought she am i so alone, when i am soaring through starlight?
Tears of pain and anger flowing, flowing like an asteroid behind her…
why?, she cried… why? i thought I was going home

just at her bleakest moment though.. when her skin was chilled to the bone
the sun returned to the sky and warmed her…
his light like a old friend; a shadow of her former self

sometimes, my sweet, you must understand the nature of stars, he told her
to be starlight, you must shine your light in darkness… in cold…
alone…for others to see… this is a lonely task you’ve undertaken…

but when you learn to light your own way, and warm your own self… you become a beacon… a shining star
so stand firm, my sweet girl, you are exactly where you are…

waves of energy reached my soul
and vibrated
as if the oceans themselves opened up
and i gushed
covering the ground in salty water

I sent swirling lights of energy
vibrating back
spinning around and around
until it reached
the stars and vanished within them

~an ancient fog~

The untamed beat of your drum within me
Is deafening
I can hear none else but you
And I can feel your breathe beside me
Your voice whispering to me
Your hand holding mine so tenderly

And I long for peace
For relief from the noise inside me
That vexes my soul

…and yet I long for you more…

You’re a deep and ancient fog
Alas! That I would get lost in you!
Spend all my days wandering
Following the sounds of your voice
The smell of your skin
Even that I cannot find you
I would be happier yet to remain
Merely within your haze