Receive

old anger swims within,
storms are raging,
ancient wounds, ripping,
voices of what was,
gnashing,
neck and shoulders
buckling;
sinking now
into the void of shadow,

this small voice cries out
“Breathe deep my love
You will emerge yet”

I find no respite in the dreams
Just now
My heart is bound and stilled
My mind must play catch-up
So I linger here spinning
My face tense
My chest heavy

Triggered guilt
Resides within my breast
Unresolved feelings of lack
Embarrassment
Humiliation
Hatred
Pain
Defeat
Anger
Frustration
Doubt
Fear
Acceptance
Understanding
Forgiveness
Love
Release

I give what I am. Forgiveness lies in the intention
What is humiliation but a fear of judgement
Give up judgement and fear recedes. Forgiveness lies in the receiver
Receive forgiveness and be forgiven

The light is shining now
As the storm subsides
Leaving this heart a little lighter
Wounds healed through the deep
And my balance once again restored

Already free

My heart is throbbing
With discontent and worry-
Change lies within the 5s
Of my journey homeward,
And I suffer at the lack of progress
So filled with foreboding,
Anticipation and insecurity-
I watch my hands to know what to do
They lead me further into this puzzle,
Hoping for clarity,
Praying for illumination,
So the dark inside me-
The bits that cannot stand being brought
Into the light-
Might finally find comfort and respite…
Arduous heart! Do not falter for
My peace resides within your soft
And hidden truth
I am floating now upon the waters
Of my very existence
Trying to remember that I’m already
Free

Collecting

The wave has crashed
And the buildup of energy
Lies smote upon the sandy shore
What devils cured up within me?
Churning within my chaos
And now left like stones and shells
For me to collect
And categorize
And cherish
Upon the sandy expanse
Of my awakening consciousness?

Upon the wind

Long dark corridors
Rooms unlived in and unkempt
Opening doors long forgotten
Autumn’s air releasing

Songs are returning
As energy flows in
Breaking up the blocks
Rebuilding this heart

Silence marks the gravesite
Of what was
Letting go of desire
My hair flows freely upon the wind

this new day

The long night is giving way
And I can see now
The golden hue of morning
Waves lost upon my shore
Remember the salty taste
Of ocean’s breath
And my heart
Reunited with the words
Of my divine mind
Sings hallelujah both softly
And loud
The end of a long road
Has lead this body here
To bask now in the glory
of this new day

New day

The light returns
And the sudden jolt
Of illumination
Startles me
This heart- used to now,
The darkness of delay
And unknown,
Reaches out into possibility
While fear cowers
Having receded into the
Shadows within me
To gather herself-
The silence of waiting
Has given way to thunderous
Claps of movement and
Change
There is nothing left now
But to gather the shattered
Pieces together
And follow the light of
This new day

Healer’s prayer

Accepting this path
Without pressure
Without judgement
Without the need to be perfect
Just here
Shining light
Just here
Minding the flame of
This moment
Just here with fear by my side
Just here with hope standing
Just here now without conditions
Just now, without comparison

May the eternal flame guide my voice
My understanding
And my connection to divine healing
Guide my hands now consciousness
As I fall into your vast immeasurable
Depths with faith

Glowing

I am here
Hopelessly following the signs
Fear clings to my cloak
Like a child to my coattails
My light stands upon
The mountaintops of mine
Brazenly glowing
While the least of me
Hides inside the darkness
Afraid of what she might see
Heavenward I send my breath
And upon angels wings she returns
…I trust my path….
Though fear would have me lost
Inside my mind,
All is as it should be
I will keep glowing

Becoming unbecoming

Fire is rising
Divine appointment
Sheds her fear
As wings open
Spreading flames
Of compassionate
Truth
Undressed in this moment
She takes her place
Within burning sky
To claim space
Becoming
Unbecoming

to grow

raindrops are falling
and i can smell the wet dirt
within my heart
reaching flowers strive to blossom
now as the rain gently taps
through the darkness
remembering light
my heart yearns for release
from the heaviness
from the suffering
that drowns it so
now as the rain gently taps
this song is my reminder
that all things need depth
to grow