attuned

I woke with a start; my body tingling,
i was not alone.. I felt others… they were inspecting
and tuning my chakras
i could almost hear them talking…

later i rose to the treelined mountain top
and saw just over the tops of the pines
i reached out an felt their light in my body
glowing sunset yellow, orange and green

my eyes turned and i had eagle sight
i aimed to rise up into the clouds
but memories held me back…
and fear of loss….

from my hands flowed a network
of roots and braches
down into the earth
where I fed her deep energy

i kept hearing.. raise the vibration…
and as i lifted my heart, higher and higher
i could feel the energy around me grow
light filling all space

green tears of rain

~green tears of rain~

Dark green tears of rain soothe
my heart
Burning still from the bolt
Of fiery pain set down upon it.

….I do not blame…
I only wish to heal that which is mine

So with deep healing tears
I try…
And Gaia gives me love inside
As I wash away the still burning fire

releasing with love

She is the mountains;
The flow of streams….
Her essence- immovable
…stoically

And of her heart-
There’s but one key;
tossed to the heavens
…faithfully

Inside the earth- souls green heart
remains true-
Waiting for eternity
…to set it free

undone….

caught in-between the folds of
what is real and what is illusion,
with the weight of responsibly upon me,
my heart sits and refuses to beat
any longer…

conflictions…of fire and concrete…
line my face, my breast, my legs
i cannot move, or speak or feel
i cry out for release from the pain
and the longing of my soul

…to be free….

you, who are my light, my knight
my love- in my life
i fear what you bring to me
and what i could be with you
and i am lost to despair

for those who depend upon me
and those who feel they know me
and those who believe they love me
for those that need me
…I cannot bring pain

i cry out for release from this sorrow
and yet it grips my heart so
that i cannot breathe
life holds no color without you
life holds no meaning without heart

i am shattered, and lying bare on the
floor… without hope.. without light…
without the beating of my breast
and the golden love
inside me…

my heart is fallen to the floor
and i don’t even want it anymore….

…fell…

my heart is broken
and its fallen to the floor
i don’t even want it
anymore…

weeping acid pain
acrid and oozing;
the emptiness of my
illusion…

theres nothing left
nowhere to hide
this pain is eating me
alive…

I am nothing
and in darkness i dwell
crestfallen soul’s fate-
…fell…

hunger

~hunger~

you devour my spirit
like a hungry animal
and i submit my entire being
to you…in ecstasy

my longing has turned …
for i am forever open to your touch
and your breath on my skin
as if my own body were yours

we are but travelers on this plane
and my energy opens to you
like a fresh flower to the sun
or better yet… to the stars above

and i linger here, for you, with you
in a quiet repose of everlasting love
and desire
and you linger within me, ravaging

your spirit is too strong for my body
and i glow with your light
from my core
and my body does your will

quivering i sit within the walls of my home
waiting for your return to me
waiting for your hunger
to find me… once again

on the vernal equinox

~on the vernal equinox~

daughter of Gaia, mistress of the mountain!
she washes her hair beside you
her golden tresses falling upon your breast
filling your heart with soft smelling fragrance

look for her, in despair and darkness
her green flowing dresses cover you
in peace and in love
embracing the pain from you

her arms, like flowing streams,
soothe your tired soul, quench your parched throat,
ease your weary body…

she is the sun that warms your heart
and the wind that calls your name
and the bird that gives you sight

look down from the heavens and see her beauty!
for it is yours to behold

all desire and destruction
fall within her
the ground shakes with her tears;
flowers open to her touch…

love her still… as she is yours
forever near, forever close, forever true

her heart does not waver
as a mountain is not moved…
as the stars line the sky….
her love is true