pure clarity

Pure clarity…
Now is the time for managing emotion-
for finding peace within the storm-
for not reacting to the pain;
such is this push and pull of life
that takes me from one extreme to the next- wildly…
Now is the time for quiet even during
the loudest of actions-
And solitude even while pain burns so brightly within the confines of my heart
that my skin is charred and blistered

Pure clarity…
Creates space to find the emptiness
that is required to weather
the heartache of this mess
and find the joy within my own heart
to keep moving forward in light.

this tempest

A mountain is unmoved
by even the wildest of storms

Let my heart be that mountain
And remain steadfast through
the tempest of emotion that ravages
my mind and body, enrapturing thought
And spirit.

Gail force winds of anger and guilt;
Shame and fear.. let them beat upon
My breast;
Imprisoning breath;
Until the tops of trees quiver with energy
And all that once was
Is replaced, returned and retraced

This steadfast heart of mine! Hold on
But a little longer through this tempest of
Pain
Whilst the nature of emotion
Runs through the gambit of fate
And all returns, not the same, but
Cleaner and more quiet.

feeds my soul

I give myself to the universe
and she responds…
Waves of electricity pulsate
like a circuit completed
or a cycle circled
and the love I receive
is acceptance for me
for the being I am
and not what I’m supposed to be…
So much to let go
if for but a moment, alone,
I push into the cosmic flow;
An act of ritualism
that feeds my soul

Unresolved emotions

~unresolved emotions~

Unresolved emotions bounce
within me like a pinball;
each ricochet more deafening
than the last

And I long to be rid of these feelings
of these uncontrollable bedfellows
that have made me
their unwitting, unwilling host

Each emotion, raw and tender
to touch, explores my body,
my mind and my heart
with distrust and longing

There’s no hiding from that
which lives within my heart-
clouding my vision of what’s to come
and blocking my way forward.

These bouncing pinballs of pain
cannot be ignored any more
than I can ignore breath or sleep…
or the misery that comes with knowing uncertainty.

New moon blessing

~New Moon blessing~

I give myself over to divine protection and guidance;
I submit my body to you, oh lord, that you might move me in your will and your way;
I long to merge my energy with your abundance
And I will follow your guidance with my heart…
Whatever will come for me, I will accept with grace-
And what is not to be I will release with love
Oh lord I pray for your divine forgiveness of my past mis-steps and mis-deeds…
I submit myself to you now with a full heart ♥️

in time

From the depths of space and time
the universe will bring us back;
this undying love,
that transcends all physical planes
and energizes spirit
like a thunder cloud and bolt
of lightning…
This has been ordained
and I believe that all will come
as scheduled and in time

All will be happy.

Pain

My heart hurts
what to do with this pain?
I cannot eat it
to make it go away;
It just lingers within my chest
like a weight,
constricting my breath