Burning away

I have been lost, drifting in and out
Breathing when i can
Sinking when the waves take me under
Hoping for a better end
Hoping that I will see
My eyes have been blinded by pain
My hands kept busy from fear
My heart locked safely away
Until nothing remains but darkness
And screams
This mind, unholy, this breast
Taken by the remnants and echoes of what’s passed
And now I sit on the edge of what I thought I wanted
Realizing that I am no more than still trapped
This time inside another shiny doll
Still not my eyes
What will I do when they take me away?
What will I leave of me?
Release yourself from the pain
And embrace the fear I hear them say
But I am small and scared
So instead of running I linger by
And watch as all I love burns away

Surrender

To the devil whose darkness
lies within me
My body surrendered
And I opened like a flower
Falling beneath its touch
I released all those memories
Exploding from me, crackling off my skin
No longer hidden, but a rush of energy-
Shaking and loth to find my breath
I merged with the shadows
Full and unafraid
Until quivering my body lay spent beside me
And with a smile remembered the words
To ancient songs long forgotten-
Reunited echoes once again

A lightworker’s prayer

Today I release my ego from control.

Today I release the human of me and allow my being to fall into the void of my higher self. I pray for the strength to stay on bended knee so I may be of service. I pray for the wisdom to see myself as I am and the grace to let go of that person I see. I pray for release from thoughts and attachment so that divine will be done.

Faith

I let spirit guide me
I let go of any illusion of control
And release myself to the hands of the divine
I stop forcing and fall into the flow
I trust that my path is clear and sound
Blessings flow when I stop forcing
And fall into that sweet darkness of faith

Home

The fear overtakes and all that was bright
Burns to ash
This heart crumbles upon the cliffs and rock
My face like a stone, rigid and tight
Oh and this body as it cries out
My mind sits by helpless and lost

I stumble home cold and wounded
Crawling towards respite and relief
Covered by agony
Slowly releasing, rising up and away
I find my place amid the brush and dirt
To heal and strengthen once again

Both sides

Went to the upper world
Entered by climbing a golden glowing rope
Into the clouds- into the sky
My eyes were greeted with golden geese
Walking past me like little women
And I ran into an old woman
Covered in a glowing cloak
I asked to understand more about me
She laid me down and felt my darkness
Released the dark, the heavy
I got scared
I saw people covered in dark hoods
Walking to war
I was scared of them and felt a part of them
And she told me to accept the darkness
That was my journey
I sat with the pain and anger the fear
For a time- trying to let go of the fear
Trying to let it all float away
Both sides, both sides are me
And the drumming changed
And I didn’t want to go
But I left because I needed to go home