The long night is giving way
And I can see now
The golden hue of morning
Waves lost upon my shore
Remember the salty taste
Of ocean’s breath
And my heart
Reunited with the words
Of my divine mind
Sings hallelujah both softly
And loud
The end of a long road
Has lead this body here
To bask now in the glory
of this new day
New day
The light returns
And the sudden jolt
Of illumination
Startles me
This heart- used to now,
The darkness of delay
And unknown,
Reaches out into possibility
While fear cowers
Having receded into the
Shadows within me
To gather herself-
The silence of waiting
Has given way to thunderous
Claps of movement and
Change
There is nothing left now
But to gather the shattered
Pieces together
And follow the light of
This new day
Healer’s prayer
Accepting this path
Without pressure
Without judgement
Without the need to be perfect
Just here
Shining light
Just here
Minding the flame of
This moment
Just here with fear by my side
Just here with hope standing
Just here now without conditions
Just now, without comparison
May the eternal flame guide my voice
My understanding
And my connection to divine healing
Guide my hands now consciousness
As I fall into your vast immeasurable
Depths with faith
Glowing
I am here
Hopelessly following the signs
Fear clings to my cloak
Like a child to my coattails
My light stands upon
The mountaintops of mine
Brazenly glowing
While the least of me
Hides inside the darkness
Afraid of what she might see
Heavenward I send my breath
And upon angels wings she returns
…I trust my path….
Though fear would have me lost
Inside my mind,
All is as it should be
I will keep glowing
Becoming unbecoming
Fire is rising
Divine appointment
Sheds her fear
As wings open
Spreading flames
Of compassionate
Truth
Undressed in this moment
She takes her place
Within burning sky
To claim space
Becoming
Unbecoming
to grow
raindrops are falling
and i can smell the wet dirt
within my heart
reaching flowers strive to blossom
now as the rain gently taps
through the darkness
remembering light
my heart yearns for release
from the heaviness
from the suffering
that drowns it so
now as the rain gently taps
this song is my reminder
that all things need depth
to grow
Beggar’s feast
this union,
a long time coming
light and dark waring,
gnashing, screeching, tearing-
and yet, now,
here we sit
at an undressed table
sharing civility-
trepidation, holds her breath
as mine exhales
softly, slowly, smiling-
a beggar’s feast
Nothing
it’s just nothing
this nothing that sits heavy
within the moment
beneath understanding
within the heart
this nothing that drives a wedge
between what was
and what is
falling behind, deafened by
this nothing that lingers so
fostering despair
silent tears fall
on account of this nothing
that will not recede
(this retrograde)- karma
it’s dark and heavy-
the fires that were burning
are all but out,
and I am left listening
to the sounds of the wild
just outside-
my heart is breaking,
literally shattering,
shards of glass falling
and then reforming
only to break again…
the sounds of such danger lurking
within my heart, i am sobbing-
a thousand times dead
only to reform the circle
and die again…
this is a hard road
this clearing- of all that’s been-
my bleeding hands
cannot take any more-
shattering pieces just fall
at my feet
waiting for release
why do I keep picking them up?
my heart is screaming with agony-
it will not bend,
it will not give in-
i am lost to the yelling,
the constant bitter lament-
why do you plague me so,
dear heart,
leave me alone
and I will walk away
but you will follow me i suppose
so i remain
trapped inside this loop of
bitterness and pain
who comes to save the savior?
there is nothing left to wash away
it’s only after this storm is passed
that I will get any sleep at all
Loneliness
It feels like ages
since I could see the sun-
Living in this darkness,
Surrounded by animals that linger
In the shadows,
Fear waits beside me
And for now I have her wrapped
In my arms-
But this road is so lonesome
And I am feeling like not pushing on-
When will the heaviness
Leave my lungs?
The whispers, my heart?
To taste free air again!
I am wasting away
In this wasteland of pain
Begging for clarity
And receiving none
the SIBYL'S SONG 