Category: meditation

this lonely heart

Loneliness sounds so loud
Echoing through these chambers
Of my heart
Longing resides within the empty corners
For something more than silence
For light to shine through the darkness
For smiles to replace pain
Would that I could take away your suffering
Would you hold me again?
Would you cover me in your golden
Voice and soothe this ache?
Lifetimes I wait
But now, As I peer upon your prison
Your dark retreat
I know healing requires distance
And I am but a leaf on a breeze
So I will flow upon the winds of time
With faith that all will be safe

walk with me

The bridge connecting the inner realm
to the outer world is glowing-
Alive with golden energy
We are invited now to walk upon
The golden boughs
And transcend the limitations
Of time and space-
Through the inward expansion,
And guided by the thread of breath
And hope and love,
We arrive at a place not unlike
What was
But far more melodious
In color and shape-
All that has ever been resides here
All possibility and outcome
Free from the shackles of place and time
Our body flows upon the embers of
All that is-
It is time to raise voice and sing
For a new dawn awaits those who listen
Free from suffering, balanced in acceptance
Guided by compassion
We raise our hands in unison
And companionship,
A fellowship and sisterhood,
Blessed and kissed by hand of the king
Embrace your divinity- walk with me

Rosie

here i sit across from my rosie
from the killer who rang through
my heart last night
wrenching light
until i could understand something
bigger
this poor love, a dog
who has her own nature,
who has her own set of rules to live by-
she shook me with her brutality,
with her base nature
and as I heard the cries of the poor
creature i which she died
i was brought to tears
by the ferocity
and vulnerability
and just here now, she lies near me
trusting and loving
sleeping with a low hum of breath
and i am still reeling from the
thing… the death
that visited my ears, echoing
within me deeply
we are all animals
we are all creatures of destruction
and vulnerabitity
the lesson lies within the balance
of truth and honesty
as brutal in nature as can be

sound of death

A light was activated
As tiny explosions sent my heart
Into meltdown
It was the sound of death
That still clings to me
The vulnerability
The deep carnal fear
Darkness cannot cover that sound
The final gasps of potential
Lost to dust now
Deep trauma energy
Circled and climbed
Within me until shaking
I could not hear or speak
Surrounded in pain and anger
I just sat and sat
Still I’m waiting for some deeper clarity
My sweet dog didn’t mean
Her cruelty upon whatever
Lingered in the darkness of the garden
But within me she opened
Such ancient suffering
And now I sit with her actions
Her instincts
And pray for understanding

alone

I stand alone upon this cliff
my toes, dig into dirt
as the grass tickles my feet
I am alone
with nothing left but my own will
with nothing but the resolve
of my heart
I do not dare sing
or weep
for the land is slowly drifting
beneath me
and sky shadowing things yet
to arrive
This is a fallacy, this truth
these lies
there is nothing but me
and the dirt
and the grass tickling my feet
and the sky
I am that I am
I am nothing and all
I am full and empty
I am alone

Three elders

Stretching and straining
To hold it all in
The seams are coming undone
And all that lingers still
Within me is considering mutany
Three elders watch silently
As the expanding fear
Pushes against my fillings-
And while I know the future,
Not yet visible,
Is of no concern for me-
The tightening of my chest
And the pulling of my seams
Is uncomfortable yet-
Grandfathers show me another way!
Still the silence and speak!
I am listening for your clarity,
I am drowning beneath my own
Uncertainty and doubt-
Tokens from dreams line my pockets
And my heart begs for release
From these times
Truth be told- this journey is one of hope
But not for me

Ancestors and Divine

Swimming in a lake of fire
Flames- orange, red and blue
Surround me
Full of faces and voices-
The water, tepid, not boiled
Soothes my face and body
As songs of old play lightly
In the background of my mind-
What insight will greet me
As I flow under the depth and wave?
I give myself over to the flames
Becoming stripped of all I am not
Risen to, through, a light more kind
And forgiving
I learn to listen with my eye
As my heart translates the pain
Until understanding is burned
Again into this consciousness
And I free myself to dive
Into the wisdom of my ancestors
And divine

Noise and fear

The noise is deafening this morning
Words are not breaking through
And fear, loosed to run rampant
Upon the flowers and fruits
I’ve been growing,
Trampling burgeoning beauty,
Is growing in strength and ferocity-
Slithering among my garden
Are snakes of many colors
Some shedding skins
Some hunting
Some there just to get warmed
By the sun-
I am drowning in my lack
This inability to quiet my head
And drown away the noise that
Plagues my heart so
Would that I could find a sliver of peace
Within it I would hide my face
Until the quiet returns again.

Altar

My heart is blind
Bound by strings that lead
Back through time
I can hear my ancestors calling
Wandering
Searching through the fog to find
A link to steady the winds
And waters
Fires and stone
They flow with words
That only my heart can hear
Blinded as she is now to
The static that clouds the sky
And lays waste to truth
Divine calling
Sacred songs- echoing until they
Find me
I lay upon the altar of my being
And wait to be taken

Humanity

The world within
Dark and void
Holds echoes of past truth
Ancestor consciousness
Clarity
Within the safety of this silence
I abide
With my doubt and loneliness
With my suffering
At my side
The world opens to rainbows
Of singing light
And I am lost to my own
Deep truths
Listen and you may hear me
Within you too
This voice that reaches deep
Into this void of truth
And pulls at the heart of
Humanity