Tag: sorrow

a more tender energy

my task now is to let go
say goodbye, good day, farewell
and let the universe
try to fill the empty spaces
with light

this calling of my heart
to understand the part i played;
my doing : undoing mixed
together- this flow…
i let go

heaviness sits upon my soul;
striving to be free from the
confines that bound it
to you- the links
back to me

i release all those things
i thought to know;
trying to make sense of
that which draws deep pain
within my soul

and with love, and on my knees,
i plead to the universe
to take that which i lost
and replace it with
a more tender energy

my last to you

You once asked me
if my feelings fade
and I told you my heart,
unlike the moon,
doesn’t wax and wane

I am constant…

I know your heart
and it’s need for change
and it’s unrelenting search for
that which destiny
Ordains

….Unconditionally always was a tall order anyway…..

relationships work two ways-
and a dose of honesty
between us was all
I ever needed
and would have cherished
all my days.

Alas… though, now all that’s left is to fade away.

a compass that points in one direction

Looking back now
I realize I held on too long
to the illusion of you
instead of seeing your
bitterly cold reality

Smoke and mirrors-
that’s your heart
and your truth
and what you leave
behind in your wake…

I feel such morose pity
for you-
Empty, suffering, lost-
A compass that only points
in one direction…

I wish I knew , what I know
before I launched myself
into your heart;
a fire I will not
recover from quickly

painful sorrow

There is just a sadness
That lingers on the flesh
Like dew
and it wont go away, or dry up
Or change into something new…

It just simply sits there
Moistly on my skin
Reminding me that I am
Not soft to touch
But slick and slimy…

And foul with painful sorrow

empty nest

I held a baby robin in my
Hand yesterday
Trying to lift it back into its nest

It’s heart was beating, mouth open
So full of frailty and life;
I waited to see mom return

Twice more she fell out of her
Poorly constructed nest
and twice more I lifted her back

Yet when I awoke this morning
The nest was empty
And a little body lay upon the mulch

Sadness within that empty nest-
As I watch the robin mother
Lament her fallen child

And I think of those empty
And poorly constructed places within my heart
That cannot hold love

And I too grieve for the loss
That lies within me
For that is equally as sorrowful

too dark to shine for you

i am sorry for the pain behind your eyes;
hidden by the lines forged once by smiles…
i am sorry for the weight upon your chest;
a place i used to lay my head…
i am sorry for the push and pull of confusion
that has dragged you this way and that…

i am sorry that i cannot be
what you long for, what you need, what you deserve,

my failure is only outshined by my despair.
i just keep asking… how can i hurt one who has been so loving?

i am sorry my heart lies here broken
….by those who came before you…

they say that the gold that fills the cracks
of broken vases only makes them that
much more valuable…
would that I could be your gold,
and fill your broken places
with light…

alas, i am too dark to shine for you…

smoke and debris

~smoke and debris~

i will let you go now, also,
as the tide that rolled in, flows back to sea;
and i am the beach that you caressed
so lovingly , while you spread over body
and filled the spaces between

the moon pulls you away from me now
and I accept the absence with
what could have once been longing
but now, only an emptiness that
cannot be filled

you say goodbye to me, now,
not with words, but with lack…
what once glowed with unfurnished flames
now lingers as smoke and
debris