To the devil whose darkness
lies within me
My body surrendered
And I opened like a flower
Falling beneath its touch
I released all those memories
Exploding from me, crackling off my skin
No longer hidden, but a rush of energy-
Shaking and loth to find my breath
I merged with the shadows
Full and unafraid
Until quivering my body lay spent beside me
And with a smile remembered the words
To ancient songs long forgotten-
Reunited echoes once again
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Home
The fear overtakes and all that was bright
Burns to ash
This heart crumbles upon the cliffs and rock
My face like a stone, rigid and tight
Oh and this body as it cries out
My mind sits by helpless and lost
I stumble home cold and wounded
Crawling towards respite and relief
Covered by agony
Slowly releasing, rising up and away
I find my place amid the brush and dirt
To heal and strengthen once again
Journey to my foremothers
I was cold and I went down a dirty staircase
Coming up the other side I felt deary
Butterfly flew past me and birds
I wanted to find my grandmother
I wanted to understand how to heal
the relationship with my mom
Her mother was there
They showed me the unhappiness that lingered in the family
Grandmother senior had a cold and distant husband
And grandmother had an alcoholic
And mom had a cheater
And the anger that she felt
Shaped me, suffocated me
I was frightened and full of fear-
Collapsed under her dark cloud of anger
I understood that the pain she lived with lives with me too
The fear she felt from the cruelty of her parent’s toxicity
resides with me
And that I can heal my family line
By healing myself of this pain
My fore mothers are with me still
Shining a light even in darkness
Showing me another way
And it felt like popping and glowing
This release of energy, deep and profound
Healing- deep and releasing
I let go of old stored feelings trapped
Beneath… popping and dancing off my skin
And peace blossomed in the painful areas
As understanding shined through the darkness
On the shadow side
I was on the shadow side of things
Cloaked in purple and hidden
An owl was with me
She reminded me to look deeply
And see through the darkness
I heard a woman’s voice
Crying for help- like an echo
Help me – help me
And I washed her in purple light
And told her she was safe
Masks are being removed
As the veil between grows thin
And the deeper into the shadows I go
The fuller I find to heal
Sway
The wind calls to me
Singing ancient tunes from far away
My heart hears the words,
Whispers of lifetimes past,
And she is exalted beyond the veil
To see, to feel, to be!
And the earth, she holds me in her womb
As the music plays and rustles
My heart, she sways
Rooted in and lost to the echoes
Of what was and remains still
Within the beating of this moment
Nothing but me
Fear used to harm me
Like a dark shadow I’d run
Eyes closed trying not to see
It followed me to the darkest corners
Until I would scream
And then one day fear caught up
And grabbed my heart
And stopped my mind
And I fell beneath the shadow of him
And all I was afraid of- saw me
All sense of time and control gone
I saw fear… behind his mask
And saw that nothing was there,
but the face of me
Lifetimes merging
Through the looking glass
I saw her
Smiling at me
Bright eyes
Indifferent and longing
But she was a water sign
Gentler and less resolute
Feelings made of glass
And anger that could cut you
She had a circus crown upon her head
And stars in her eyes
Her smile ran through me
And I knew then that we were one
The energy of knowing
Melted lifetimes into one
For a brief moment I felt she saw me too
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Show you peace
This energy that opens is furry
And fuzzy and light as mist
It takes me humming into a more
Real system than I have seen
Buzzing through me I see
With glowing eyes colors and transpondents
Watch the waxy covering peel away
And what remains is steadfast
Clarity exists within the folds of what was
And what is to be
Light energy
Washing away with silver droplets of glowing
Water, slowly caressing skin as a river
To the bolder
Show me the way to this salvation
And I will show you peace
Fear
Fear grips my heart
Squandering life with a tight hand
It’s a weed that’s grown over years
Of avoidance and neglect
Beautiful and frightening it blooms
Under my skin- fragrance hitting my nose
No where to hide now
The rage has been loosed
And now all that’s left is to wait
the SIBYL'S SONG 