Tag: poetry

End

My heart aches
With an unrelenting sorrow
An unyielding, forever present
Tension that cannot be soothed-
Drowning within its own blood
Each breath a deeper silence,
A further falling,
My heart cannot even cry out –
Failing I cannot even lift my head…
Ancient pain stabs and stops
It lingers and laughs
“I am nothing without you”
I whisper to the echoes
That line the past
But nothing comes for me
Or takes my bloody hand-
Alone upon this time I linger now
Waiting for it to end

this lonely heart

Loneliness sounds so loud
Echoing through these chambers
Of my heart
Longing resides within the empty corners
For something more than silence
For light to shine through the darkness
For smiles to replace pain
Would that I could take away your suffering
Would you hold me again?
Would you cover me in your golden
Voice and soothe this ache?
Lifetimes I wait
But now, As I peer upon your prison
Your dark retreat
I know healing requires distance
And I am but a leaf on a breeze
So I will flow upon the winds of time
With faith that all will be safe

walk with me

The bridge connecting the inner realm
to the outer world is glowing-
Alive with golden energy
We are invited now to walk upon
The golden boughs
And transcend the limitations
Of time and space-
Through the inward expansion,
And guided by the thread of breath
And hope and love,
We arrive at a place not unlike
What was
But far more melodious
In color and shape-
All that has ever been resides here
All possibility and outcome
Free from the shackles of place and time
Our body flows upon the embers of
All that is-
It is time to raise voice and sing
For a new dawn awaits those who listen
Free from suffering, balanced in acceptance
Guided by compassion
We raise our hands in unison
And companionship,
A fellowship and sisterhood,
Blessed and kissed by hand of the king
Embrace your divinity- walk with me

Noise and fear

The noise is deafening this morning
Words are not breaking through
And fear, loosed to run rampant
Upon the flowers and fruits
I’ve been growing,
Trampling burgeoning beauty,
Is growing in strength and ferocity-
Slithering among my garden
Are snakes of many colors
Some shedding skins
Some hunting
Some there just to get warmed
By the sun-
I am drowning in my lack
This inability to quiet my head
And drown away the noise that
Plagues my heart so
Would that I could find a sliver of peace
Within it I would hide my face
Until the quiet returns again.

Humanity

The world within
Dark and void
Holds echoes of past truth
Ancestor consciousness
Clarity
Within the safety of this silence
I abide
With my doubt and loneliness
With my suffering
At my side
The world opens to rainbows
Of singing light
And I am lost to my own
Deep truths
Listen and you may hear me
Within you too
This voice that reaches deep
Into this void of truth
And pulls at the heart of
Humanity

Flying

I stretch and strain to find the light
Reaching into the far corners of my being
Growing towards something
I cannot see
But somehow know is there
I release the hold my ego has
Upon my soul
And take flight- On unsure wings
I fly
Bursting through clouds and winds
I am nothing- as light as a smile
And free as the echoes that
Linger still in the past of my mind
Without fear I glide
Towards that which I cannot see
And into a beyond yet to be

thought

Inner child’s voice

Without clear thought
The mind is muddled
Too many words spinning
Tying and untying knot after knot
The deeper the wound is touched
The tighter the threads are locked
This inner child raises her voice
Only to be drowned out by the clamoring
Of thought
So many times she’s tried to tell
And so many times she’s failed
It’s my own fault
Traumas run deep and come out dirty
My mind would rather block it out
With words- images- confusion
Until i completely lose the plot
And walk away

Waiting for darkness to pass

Beneath this fear- doubt rages
She is a tempest of dark
And swirling energy
I hold my breath, close my eyes
But I can still feel her winds
Upon my breast
Her stench within my nose
I am blinded by her
Binded by her
She is me-
unraveled and ugly to behold
This nothingness and lack
This worthless and unworthy
What will become of me?
I fight still her whispers-
Her secret reminders
That I will never be enough
My heart is bleeding from her sweet
Sweet nothing
And all I can do is wait for this
Darkness to pass

darkness and storms

This insufferable lack of ease
Spinning in my mind
And over my face; jaw locked tight
Anger just below ready to ignite
All masking this despair I feel
This darkness of inadequacy
This hatred of self
My body sits so tightly
Expecting attack
Ready to advance upon my own heart
What can be done in the face of such energy?
Yet still, I wait for the storms to pass
I linger with the ever explosive-
Inside the darkness I am quietly waiting
For the sun to shine
So I can bury my dead and heal my injured
And smile once again

Dissolve away

This body is sick with fear
And covered in anger
Red glowing embers reach into nostril
Choking down thought and throat
I am captive of it
Their rebellion of body and emotion
My teeth grind
I sit here and watch the horror
Of green and red explosions
They even took hold in my back
Setting camp by a shoulder blade
Such destruction they lay-
I remember to relax my grinding teeth
And tell myself it’s okay
All things dissipate in time
So I will not fight the pain, the dissension
With more pain and control
But rather I will look upon this body with love
And wait for the tantrum to lose strength
And dissolve away