Tag: love

smoke and debris

~smoke and debris~

i will let you go now, also,
as the tide that rolled in, flows back to sea;
and i am the beach that you caressed
so lovingly , while you spread over body
and filled the spaces between

the moon pulls you away from me now
and I accept the absence with
what could have once been longing
but now, only an emptiness that
cannot be filled

you say goodbye to me, now,
not with words, but with lack…
what once glowed with unfurnished flames
now lingers as smoke and
debris

a bad wife

~a bad wife~

I’ve been a bad wife
moving without thought, forever forward,
impossibly looking for that which
eludes me

Without measure of my actions
I’ve walked the line between right and wrong
and results have never weighed much
upon my mind

repercussions ring now, at the end
of all things,
with loud fever; darkening the doorstep
of my heart

how does one recover
from the stain
of causing such irrevocable pain
and misery?

cruelty that dwells within my spirit
haunts the steps of that which is light

breath is but a luxury

~breath is but a luxury~

this flow is too much to manage today
it is growing, making its way up to my throat
and choking my voice
uncomfortably stoic, i remain seated
staring at a blank screen
waiting for words to emerge from
the depths of my heart-
anything to make this silence yet more comfortable
to bear

though I wait here in agony for relief
from the climbing anxiety within my heart
I know that i must not move
or blink
for without the quiet acknowledgment of this pain
i will not release it back into the air
from which it came…
and rid my body of the toxicity
that now runs like poison through my life

i give not into the pushing pulling instincts
within me to run and hide
or stay and fight…
to find the wonderful excitement of escape
from that which lies just beneath my surface…
i long to reach out to those who might
make me forget… lotus blossoms of courage…
an eater i wish to be… but then lost to the darkness…
I would forever be….

so i wait until this choking pain passes
leaving not peace, but quiet within my soul,
i ask not for that which i am not entitled…
peace is too much to ask, so i beg for
silence to grant my spirit a reprieve
from the conflagration of fire
that burns so fervently within me
leaving me gasping to breathe
…breath is but a luxury….

Statue of the Sea

Oh! Tall and constant Lover!
My statue in the sea;
Clouds crown your head, as you hover
Above… protectively.

Birds flock to you to hear your song–
‘Floats softly on the breeze;
A tune, dependable and strong,
Keeps hearts and souls at ease!

True and ever constant statue!
You stand alone in time;
What artisan from rock and stone
Carved such ancient design?

Peacefulness is the light you shine!

Stormy seas rage, wild winds blow;
Still, fortitude, I find,
Within my rock, my lord, my beau;
Constant and unconfined.

Under your guard, I find my home,
Firm stance, unfaltering;
And those songs that are yours alone—
Within my spirit ring.

Thru’ wind and rain– remains your throne
A light for those in need;
A true guide, calling lost souls home,
A holy task indeed!