now that i can see
the secrets that in front
of me have dangled
Softly
i am free to love more fully
with the understanding
that what was, while not real,
still held lessons for my soul,
to help me grow, into
the person i’m meant to be.
set free
forgiveness opens the heart
up like a flower
releasing a soothing
scent of peace
upon the soul
allowing for others
to make their mistakes
in love, with love,
opens the spirit to colors
more vibrant and alive
and when we let go of that
which we desire
opting instead for what we need
we allow the universe to provide
all that is required
and in a sense, be set free
a more tender energy
my task now is to let go
say goodbye, good day, farewell
and let the universe
try to fill the empty spaces
with light
this calling of my heart
to understand the part i played;
my doing : undoing mixed
together- this flow…
i let go
heaviness sits upon my soul;
striving to be free from the
confines that bound it
to you- the links
back to me
i release all those things
i thought to know;
trying to make sense of
that which draws deep pain
within my soul
and with love, and on my knees,
i plead to the universe
to take that which i lost
and replace it with
a more tender energy
my last to you
You once asked me
if my feelings fade
and I told you my heart,
unlike the moon,
doesn’t wax and wane
I am constant…
I know your heart
and it’s need for change
and it’s unrelenting search for
that which destiny
Ordains
….Unconditionally always was a tall order anyway…..
relationships work two ways-
and a dose of honesty
between us was all
I ever needed
and would have cherished
all my days.
Alas… though, now all that’s left is to fade away.
a compass that points in one direction
Looking back now
I realize I held on too long
to the illusion of you
instead of seeing your
bitterly cold reality
Smoke and mirrors-
that’s your heart
and your truth
and what you leave
behind in your wake…
I feel such morose pity
for you-
Empty, suffering, lost-
A compass that only points
in one direction…
I wish I knew , what I know
before I launched myself
into your heart;
a fire I will not
recover from quickly
painful sorrow
There is just a sadness
That lingers on the flesh
Like dew
and it wont go away, or dry up
Or change into something new…
It just simply sits there
Moistly on my skin
Reminding me that I am
Not soft to touch
But slick and slimy…
And foul with painful sorrow
lost a friend
I lost another friend today
He was kind and funny
He was dark and morose
He was in love with our friend
For as long as I could tell
He fell into darkness..
I saw him when his collar bones
Stuck out so far from his neck
That they looked like skis
And his face bore the mark of death
I visited him by the beach
As he rid himself of the poison
That haunted his blood stream
And dreams.
I kissed him tenderly and cried
And tho I lost touch with him
He never left my heart
Or my memories
Of his laugh… or the goofy way he
Smiled
Find our friend now and kiss her
As you always longed to do
For she’s been passed over
Maybe waiting for you
My friend.
empty nest
I held a baby robin in my
Hand yesterday
Trying to lift it back into its nest
It’s heart was beating, mouth open
So full of frailty and life;
I waited to see mom return
Twice more she fell out of her
Poorly constructed nest
and twice more I lifted her back
Yet when I awoke this morning
The nest was empty
And a little body lay upon the mulch
Sadness within that empty nest-
As I watch the robin mother
Lament her fallen child
And I think of those empty
And poorly constructed places within my heart
That cannot hold love
And I too grieve for the loss
That lies within me
For that is equally as sorrowful
dissolution
~dissolution~
the flow of tears from my eyes
hasn’t stopped since you
told me the date of our
dissolution
I can not fathom that
all is lost now
and your arms will no longer
hold my fears
my heart is utterly lost;
sinking below the least of
places i have been
forging new uncharted pain
what is to become of a soul
so dark and hidden
that I cannot even
find it myself?
the only key
I feel rather foolish
For holding on this long
And with this much force
There’s only so much leeway
The universe provides
Before it sees fit to intervene
All those things we *wish* for
Are but turns in the wheel of fate
….and nothing is permanent
To be so insistent
On a thing succeeding
Only breeds disharmony
There is no understanding-
This nature of fate and exacting karma
Acceptance is the only key
the SIBYL'S SONG 