I search for you in the sky
But you’re not there
The heavens are empty of you
And my heart no longer flutters

…Where have you taken your light?…

Within me is darkness and despair
The longing is now covered in pain
And emptiness roams my halls

~ancient energy~

Ancient energy links my soul
To memories long erased
By time
….Footprints only found now
Within the heart

I see Isis shining in the distance
Holding the unbreakable bond
Like a scepter
In her glowing hand
…Reminding me

Promises never forgotten;
Words yet unspoken…
Sit Heavy and true..
Upon my mind
Like incense

Linking me back to you.

there once was a girl who reached for the stars.. she tried and tried to touch them…
alone, in the darkness, she would speak to them, whispering sweet nothings
of how it will be when she comes home

everyday the sun would rise, the birds would sing…the light of day overtaking…
and sadness would fill her heart, all she desired was to be with them
to feel their light upon her

one day when she could take no more of their leaving… she devised a plan
to fly up up up to them… her stars… and hang onto them with all her strength
how wonderful she thought, to be with them forever

So she built beautiful wings of gold, and gossamer flowers glowing
she told them not to worry, she would be coming soon
upon wings of starlight flowing

when the time was right, she dressed her arms in wings
and took off from a start… she ran and ran until she caught the air
leaving all she knew below her

The darkness to which she flew was cold… the lonliness of height
through countless stars she flew alone…. an isolating flight
no star could she call her home- no star claimed as her own

why? thought she am i so alone, when i am soaring through starlight?
Tears of pain and anger flowing, flowing like an asteroid behind her…
why?, she cried… why? i thought I was going home

just at her bleakest moment though.. when her skin was chilled to the bone
the sun returned to the sky and warmed her…
his light like a old friend; a shadow of her former self

sometimes, my sweet, you must understand the nature of stars, he told her
to be starlight, you must shine your light in darkness… in cold…
alone…for others to see… this is a lonely task you’ve undertaken…

but when you learn to light your own way, and warm your own self… you become a beacon… a shining star
so stand firm, my sweet girl, you are exactly where you are…

waves of energy reached my soul
and vibrated
as if the oceans themselves opened up
and i gushed
covering the ground in salty water

I sent swirling lights of energy
vibrating back
spinning around and around
until it reached
the stars and vanished within them

~an ancient fog~

The untamed beat of your drum within me
Is deafening
I can hear none else but you
And I can feel your breathe beside me
Your voice whispering to me
Your hand holding mine so tenderly

And I long for peace
For relief from the noise inside me
That vexes my soul

…and yet I long for you more…

You’re a deep and ancient fog
Alas! That I would get lost in you!
Spend all my days wandering
Following the sounds of your voice
The smell of your skin
Even that I cannot find you
I would be happier yet to remain
Merely within your haze

love is like poison when it hurts your heart
each beat driving the pain further into your body
each breathe, labored and raw
each moment, an eternity of why
the desire to claw out of skin to find relief
is all the mind can cling to
there is nothing… to relieve the uneasy pain of loneliness
of some part of you missing…
the other half of you… gone…
when all is forsaken… what can soothe the soul?

~The star and the earth… and the creation of dandelions~

There once was a great love between the brightest star in the sky and the earth.

She loved her star so very much… each night she would find him and give him worship from afar. She would reflect her star in her waters and watch him with devotion through the leaves in her trees

She loved this star with all of her.

The star loved his earth as well. He warmed her dark places and gave her comfort in shadow. He guided her every night and thought on her during his slumber in day.

The star though- was the most powerful star in the sky and was called on to shine for all creatures both on earth and in the heavens. His was a calling of great importance… and many flocked to him to bathe in his healing light and find in him illumination.

Oftentimes the earth, she would watch her star with awe and wonder- feeling so little next to something so full of light.

Sometimes when he was shining for another she would despair and hide her heart away. Her shadows would run through her forests and darkness would cover her…. it was hard to watch her beautiful star merge his light with another

One day he found her hiding and asked her why… why would she hide herself away?

She covered her face in shame… knowing the nature of a star… knowing that a star as bright as her love had a purpose bigger than her…

And she began to cry….

The sky filled with darkness and a great storm washed sand from beach; flower from field- all took cover as emotion flowed down upon her.

And when the storm had passed and the skies were cleared.. her star was still in the sky… still shining…

My love he told her… my purpose is to shine… but my heart will always carry your light… and with that he sent down heavenly stardust that covered her fields with small yellow dandelions.

I will always cover you… and whenever you feel alone.. simply find my flower and wish for me… I will always come for you.

my heart has sunk down
to the depths of the earth
And hidden there
Away from the pain of light
And eyes that would not love me
And hands that would not touch me
And words that would not reach me

Alone I linger in darkness
Waiting to be set free

But that is not always to be

…It is hard to love a star…

We are but verses of a poem
Unwritten
Connected by time and death
All that was and is to be
Is written on the celestial
Body of our energy

Ours is but an unforgettable whisper
Traveling back thru time
Remnants of what used to be
Echo in the halls of our eternity
Calling to us to find
Our way home