Tag: spiritualhealing

Beggar’s feast

this union,
a long time coming
light and dark waring,
gnashing, screeching, tearing-
and yet, now,
here we sit
at an undressed table
sharing civility-
trepidation, holds her breath
as mine exhales
softly, slowly, smiling-
a beggar’s feast

Nothing

it’s just nothing
this nothing that sits heavy
within the moment
beneath understanding
within the heart
this nothing that drives a wedge
between what was
and what is
falling behind, deafened by
this nothing that lingers so
fostering despair
silent tears fall
on account of this nothing
that will not recede

Loneliness

It feels like ages
since I could see the sun-
Living in this darkness,
Surrounded by animals that linger
In the shadows,
Fear waits beside me
And for now I have her wrapped
In my arms-
But this road is so lonesome
And I am feeling like not pushing on-
When will the heaviness
Leave my lungs?
The whispers, my heart?
To taste free air again!
I am wasting away
In this wasteland of pain
Begging for clarity
And receiving none

To rejoin myself

Your voice has carried upon time’s
Glowing flame
Distant echoes of pieces
Words and whispers
Images of bread and soda
That linger now beneath breath
Times cushiony dew, piling
Lifetimes until it’s all just haze
Your part of me has been still
And imprinted in collective memory
Missing links tie me back to you
A longing to rejoin myself

Another day

Armor falling
The space between
Lit now by burning fires
Remains dark
The sun has not yet risen
As metal and leather
Thump upon the ground
I could wonder where you went
Left upon that battlefield of pain
But I would rather think you flight
Upon wings of rain
Loss cannot enter
It’s just a transmute
And I will fight another day

End

My heart aches
With an unrelenting sorrow
An unyielding, forever present
Tension that cannot be soothed-
Drowning within its own blood
Each breath a deeper silence,
A further falling,
My heart cannot even cry out –
Failing I cannot even left my head…
Ancient pain stabs and stops
It lingers and laughs
“I am nothing without you”
I whisper to the echoes
That line the past
But nothing comes for me
Or takes my bloody hand-
Alone upon this time I linger now
Waiting for it to end

this lonely heart

Loneliness sounds so loud
Echoing through these chambers
Of my heart
Longing resides within the empty corners
For something more than silence
For light to shine through the darkness
For smiles to replace pain
Would that I could take away your suffering
Would you hold me again?
Would you cover me in your golden
Voice and soothe this ache?
Lifetimes I wait
But now, As I peer upon your prison
Your dark retreat
I know healing requires distance
And I am but a leaf on a breeze
So I will flow upon the winds of time
With faith that all will be safe

walk with me

The bridge connecting the inner realm
to the outer world is glowing-
Alive with golden energy
We are invited now to walk upon
The golden boughs
And transcend the limitations
Of time and space-
Through the inward expansion,
And guided by the thread of breath
And hope and love,
We arrive at a place not unlike
What was
But far more melodious
In color and shape-
All that has ever been resides here
All possibility and outcome
Free from the shackles of place and time
Our body flows upon the embers of
All that is-
It is time to raise voice and sing
For a new dawn awaits those who listen
Free from suffering, balanced in acceptance
Guided by compassion
We raise our hands in unison
And companionship,
A fellowship and sisterhood,
Blessed and kissed by hand of the king
Embrace your divinity- walk with me

sound of death

A light was activated
As tiny explosions sent my heart
Into meltdown
It was the sound of death
That still clings to me
The vulnerability
The deep carnal fear
Darkness cannot cover that sound
The final gasps of potential
Lost to dust now
Deep trauma energy
Circled and climbed
Within me until shaking
I could not hear or speak
Surrounded in pain and anger
I just sat and sat
Still I’m waiting for some deeper clarity
My sweet dog didn’t mean
Her cruelty upon whatever
Lingered in the darkness of the garden
But within me she opened
Such ancient suffering
And now I sit with her actions
Her instincts
And pray for understanding

Three elders

Stretching and straining
To hold it all in
The seams are coming undone
And all that lingers still
Within me is considering mutany
Three elders watch silently
As the expanding fear
Pushes against my fillings-
And while I know the future,
Not yet visible,
Is of no concern for me-
The tightening of my chest
And the pulling of my seams
Is uncomfortable yet-
Grandfathers show me another way!
Still the silence and speak!
I am listening for your clarity,
I am drowning beneath my own
Uncertainty and doubt-
Tokens from dreams line my pockets
And my heart begs for release
From these times
Truth be told- this journey is one of hope
But not for me