Beneath fear churns doubt
This ever present turning of
Not good enough
This doubt robs us
Of light, hope, confidence
Trust that we can move forward
Belief in ourselves
Doubt is a cold mistress
She lingers with her legs open
She wants you to fall into her
And she would have you believe
That she can make you brave
When really she only takes-
A narcissistic lover-
Who would rather feed you fear
And then feed upon you
Until there’s nothing left but darkness
Tag: soullessons
Possibility
Time here is clicking away
Each movement and ending
And a new beginning
Yet within this heart
I hear the eternal roar
Of a fire lit beyond time
Beyond the constructs
Of click click click
And within this fire
I bathe my soul
For within the eternity of
Timeless flames
I lose all that I thought I was
And dance with possibility
Be the lighthouse
Be the lighthouse
Dark heavy energy
Finds peace within me
I embrace it and challenge it
I swallow it in one breath
And release it as light in the next
I am a converter
I lighthouse of change and compassion
I am a guide and a host
I am the beginning and end
I swallow shadows
And release light
I embrace fear with love
And free it from its own bindings
Until balance returns
Be the lighthouse
Transmute fear into light
And heaviness into joy
Eat darkness so you may become
A beacon of shining hope
Peace is found in the wisdom of balance
Return your being to the eternity of the NOW
And there you will find me
Cultivating energy and holding Space
As light-workers embrace their soul’s call
To freedom
Embracing change
My heart bleeds
And yet my blood runs still
These pink and red tears
Unreserved
There’s a hole
That has no bottom
At least that I have
Found yet
And this fear of falling
Though through the air I slide
This mind likes to pretend
It has control
I am not lost
My course has no way
Free falling, flying, sliding
Embracing change
Unraveling of truth
Thoughts are lost, swept up
In the winds of time
I cannot hold what was
Everything just keeps turning
Without clarity, my heart
Sits and weeps
Without balance
She is blind
Storms have blown in now
As fate knocks down doors
Mine is still intact for now
But I can hear the pressure
It’s building from the outside
No where left to stowaway
My resolve strengthens,
As fear prepares for influxing
Energy-
Lost! My child is crying-
But what lingers outside my door?
What is clamoring to enter?
I am nothing
But I cannot reach that empty space
With this turning mind
So I will wait for the inevitable
Unraveling of truth
Blossoming
I am enough
I stretch and reach to find the light
Within my darkness
My growth is emerging
As the sun’s warmth covers my
Blossoms in golden energy
And this is how it should be
Reaching deep within my soil
My soul leaves the cool embrace
Of what was
So that I may unfold into what
Is yet to be
Each layer a blessing
Each painful growth a new beginning
And soon, as my season nears completion
My journey will take yet another road
And the earth will feed upon my petals
And what is essentially me will return
To my true home to rest
Tea
Fear and anger knocked at my door
I wanted to run and hide
Bolt the locks and pretend I wasn’t home
But i let them in
And poured some tea
The tales they wept
They spun such misery,
Hovering around my table,
And I was overcome by fear-
She was green and smelled of bile
Gagging, I listened to her
Anger surged at my restraint
And tried to burn me
Still I sat, spellbound and torn
Until all that was left was silence-
And they retreated back outside
Timelessness of being
memories are echoes that live
inside the mind
poking and prodding at the present
needy and selfish…
my dreams swim within the vast sea
of time; past present and future
bits of one tune, sung over and over
until my heart finally hears its entirety-
I’ve looked for you, for so long now
my dearest beloved self
my dearest and closest lover
i hold my breath and swim for hours on end
hoping to catch a glimpse of your beauty
to touch your vibration
and merge with it
yet, trapped still, within this form
within this construct of the now
i am forced to sit and find peace instead
perhaps when i awaken from this dream
my heart will understand
that you’ve been here, all along
memory and echo hold no sway
within the timelessness of being
But a tune
the light is returning, though within me
the lingering darkness yet gives way
deep within the basement of my being
lies traumas and truths
i linger with them, finger them, try to love them
yet there is no embrace that will salve
the throbbing loss that exists yet-
my heart, given over to the shadows
of threat and dis-ease
steadily remains unfazed
like liquid with a soul, she flows…
yet above her, sitting in wait
watching the sky shift colors
and the moon dance within her growing
shrinking, changing nature
I realize that i am but a tune in this song,
i am but a word, blown across this plane
waiting to rejoin what i remember before
the suffering took hold in darkness
and my body retreated to the void
of simply being human….
Droplets fall
It’s a slow drip
This heart of mine
Slowly methodically drip drip drip
I hear it within me, leaking
This heart! A leaking ship!
My hands rush to catch the droplets
And pull back in disgust
A symphony of running, catching, wasting
Washing; echoes seeping, dripping
Dropping-
My mind a-flutter with madness
Tapping memories of pains long passed
Still this drip, cleanse the soul!
And yet I sit, waiting still
For the next droplet from my heart
to gently fall
the SIBYL'S SONG 