Tag: soullessons

The call

Fear is an attachment
One must shine love upon that which it feeds,
The Golden light of love,
And illuminate it until fear releases

Your presence is required
Embrace the fullness of the higher self
Through the creativity of the child
Forgiveness is key

Imagination opens doorways
Into realms beyond
One must believe to enter
The Golden land is yours

The child in me writes now
As I sit in wonder at her innocence and beauty
There is nothing she cannot have
I am sorry this has taken so long

My heart radiates and I can hear the buzzing
This frequency is expanding
Those with ears to listen
Are heeding the call

Awaiting sunrise

My heart, hangs low
Breath doesn’t move
I release my shoulders
To try and stop my head
This unending circle
Screams unheard and ignored
Pieces of me are falling
My inner child cries
And still I sit
Within my own darkness
Awaiting sunrise

Receive

old anger swims within,
storms are raging,
ancient wounds, ripping,
voices of what was,
gnashing,
neck and shoulders
buckling;
sinking now
into the void of shadow,

this small voice cries out
“Breathe deep my love
You will emerge yet”

I find no respite in the dreams
Just now
My heart is bound and stilled
My mind must play catch-up
So I linger here spinning
My face tense
My chest heavy

Triggered guilt
Resides within my breast
Unresolved feelings of lack
Embarrassment
Humiliation
Hatred
Pain
Defeat
Anger
Frustration
Doubt
Fear
Acceptance
Understanding
Forgiveness
Love
Release

I give what I am. Forgiveness lies in the intention
What is humiliation but a fear of judgement
Give up judgement and fear recedes. Forgiveness lies in the receiver
Receive forgiveness and be forgiven

The light is shining now
As the storm subsides
Leaving this heart a little lighter
Wounds healed through the deep
And my balance once again restored

this new day

The long night is giving way
And I can see now
The golden hue of morning
Waves lost upon my shore
Remember the salty taste
Of ocean’s breath
And my heart
Reunited with the words
Of my divine mind
Sings hallelujah both softly
And loud
The end of a long road
Has lead this body here
To bask now in the glory
of this new day

Glowing

I am here
Hopelessly following the signs
Fear clings to my cloak
Like a child to my coattails
My light stands upon
The mountaintops of mine
Brazenly glowing
While the least of me
Hides inside the darkness
Afraid of what she might see
Heavenward I send my breath
And upon angels wings she returns
…I trust my path….
Though fear would have me lost
Inside my mind,
All is as it should be
I will keep glowing

Beggar’s feast

this union,
a long time coming
light and dark waring,
gnashing, screeching, tearing-
and yet, now,
here we sit
at an undressed table
sharing civility-
trepidation, holds her breath
as mine exhales
softly, slowly, smiling-
a beggar’s feast

Another day

Armor falling
The space between
Lit now by burning fires
Remains dark
The sun has not yet risen
As metal and leather
Thump upon the ground
I could wonder where you went
Left upon that battlefield of pain
But I would rather think you flight
Upon wings of rain
Loss cannot enter
It’s just a transmute
And I will fight another day

End

My heart aches
With an unrelenting sorrow
An unyielding, forever present
Tension that cannot be soothed-
Drowning within its own blood
Each breath a deeper silence,
A further falling,
My heart cannot even cry out –
Failing I cannot even lift my head…
Ancient pain stabs and stops
It lingers and laughs
“I am nothing without you”
I whisper to the echoes
That line the past
But nothing comes for me
Or takes my bloody hand-
Alone upon this time I linger now
Waiting for it to end

this lonely heart

Loneliness sounds so loud
Echoing through these chambers
Of my heart
Longing resides within the empty corners
For something more than silence
For light to shine through the darkness
For smiles to replace pain
Would that I could take away your suffering
Would you hold me again?
Would you cover me in your golden
Voice and soothe this ache?
Lifetimes I wait
But now, As I peer upon your prison
Your dark retreat
I know healing requires distance
And I am but a leaf on a breeze
So I will flow upon the winds of time
With faith that all will be safe

Three elders

Stretching and straining
To hold it all in
The seams are coming undone
And all that lingers still
Within me is considering mutany
Three elders watch silently
As the expanding fear
Pushes against my fillings-
And while I know the future,
Not yet visible,
Is of no concern for me-
The tightening of my chest
And the pulling of my seams
Is uncomfortable yet-
Grandfathers show me another way!
Still the silence and speak!
I am listening for your clarity,
I am drowning beneath my own
Uncertainty and doubt-
Tokens from dreams line my pockets
And my heart begs for release
From these times
Truth be told- this journey is one of hope
But not for me