The space is constructive
And the air is tight to breathe
My heart labors
As my vision begins to fade
Change is the precipitous
Of all that emerges from the dark
Squeezing from tight places
Death becomes a friend
I welcome release
Oh Pluto! Your eyes are upon me
And I fall beneath your grasps
Descending into darkness
Only to begin again
Tag: soullessons
The call
Fear is an attachment
One must shine love upon that which it feeds,
The Golden light of love,
And illuminate it until fear releases
Your presence is required
Embrace the fullness of the higher self
Through the creativity of the child
Forgiveness is key
Imagination opens doorways
Into realms beyond
One must believe to enter
The Golden land is yours
The child in me writes now
As I sit in wonder at her innocence and beauty
There is nothing she cannot have
I am sorry this has taken so long
My heart radiates and I can hear the buzzing
This frequency is expanding
Those with ears to listen
Are heeding the call
Awaiting sunrise
My heart, hangs low
Breath doesn’t move
I release my shoulders
To try and stop my head
This unending circle
Screams unheard and ignored
Pieces of me are falling
My inner child cries
And still I sit
Within my own darkness
Awaiting sunrise
Receive
old anger swims within,
storms are raging,
ancient wounds, ripping,
voices of what was,
gnashing,
neck and shoulders
buckling;
sinking now
into the void of shadow,
this small voice cries out
“Breathe deep my love
You will emerge yet”
I find no respite in the dreams
Just now
My heart is bound and stilled
My mind must play catch-up
So I linger here spinning
My face tense
My chest heavy
Triggered guilt
Resides within my breast
Unresolved feelings of lack
Embarrassment
Humiliation
Hatred
Pain
Defeat
Anger
Frustration
Doubt
Fear
Acceptance
Understanding
Forgiveness
Love
Release
I give what I am. Forgiveness lies in the intention
What is humiliation but a fear of judgement
Give up judgement and fear recedes. Forgiveness lies in the receiver
Receive forgiveness and be forgiven
The light is shining now
As the storm subsides
Leaving this heart a little lighter
Wounds healed through the deep
And my balance once again restored
this new day
The long night is giving way
And I can see now
The golden hue of morning
Waves lost upon my shore
Remember the salty taste
Of ocean’s breath
And my heart
Reunited with the words
Of my divine mind
Sings hallelujah both softly
And loud
The end of a long road
Has lead this body here
To bask now in the glory
of this new day
Glowing
I am here
Hopelessly following the signs
Fear clings to my cloak
Like a child to my coattails
My light stands upon
The mountaintops of mine
Brazenly glowing
While the least of me
Hides inside the darkness
Afraid of what she might see
Heavenward I send my breath
And upon angels wings she returns
…I trust my path….
Though fear would have me lost
Inside my mind,
All is as it should be
I will keep glowing
Beggar’s feast
this union,
a long time coming
light and dark waring,
gnashing, screeching, tearing-
and yet, now,
here we sit
at an undressed table
sharing civility-
trepidation, holds her breath
as mine exhales
softly, slowly, smiling-
a beggar’s feast
Another day
Armor falling
The space between
Lit now by burning fires
Remains dark
The sun has not yet risen
As metal and leather
Thump upon the ground
I could wonder where you went
Left upon that battlefield of pain
But I would rather think you flight
Upon wings of rain
Loss cannot enter
It’s just a transmute
And I will fight another day
End
My heart aches
With an unrelenting sorrow
An unyielding, forever present
Tension that cannot be soothed-
Drowning within its own blood
Each breath a deeper silence,
A further falling,
My heart cannot even cry out –
Failing I cannot even lift my head…
Ancient pain stabs and stops
It lingers and laughs
“I am nothing without you”
I whisper to the echoes
That line the past
But nothing comes for me
Or takes my bloody hand-
Alone upon this time I linger now
Waiting for it to end
this lonely heart
Loneliness sounds so loud
Echoing through these chambers
Of my heart
Longing resides within the empty corners
For something more than silence
For light to shine through the darkness
For smiles to replace pain
Would that I could take away your suffering
Would you hold me again?
Would you cover me in your golden
Voice and soothe this ache?
Lifetimes I wait
But now, As I peer upon your prison
Your dark retreat
I know healing requires distance
And I am but a leaf on a breeze
So I will flow upon the winds of time
With faith that all will be safe
the SIBYL'S SONG 