Tag: soullessons

Not Enough

Fear clings to me
This damp shade of doubt
That lines my thoughts and actions
Blurring the edges of my vision
Until there is nothing left to hold
This fear echoes
I am not good enough
Thin enough
Smart enough
Gifted enough
To follow my dreams and wishes
Oh how life lingers so
Waiting for me to come clean
Of this damp and clinging darkness

Claim myself again

My heart is dripping-
Drop after drop, just spilling
Pain and wonder onto the floor
At my feet…
Where has joy run to?
Hope is but a four legged fool
Running ragged amidst the spring flowers-
And what of me? This spilling, drip-drop,
Keeps me up at night….
In darkness I wander,
In darkness I cry, alone,
wondering why
The light is gone from my eyes
And the breath from each beat
Of my heart
Spilling more onto my legs, my feet,
Down these eyes
Until I cannot take anymore…
But each day, the sun will rise, I suppose,
In spite of me-
And I will greet the day
Wet with the night, with tears from
This heart of mine
Until I can claim myself again

Darkness

Heaviness sits upon my chest,
This breast, difficult to breathe,
Like darkness is washing over-
Deep waters drown out my certainty-
This suffering lingers yet, loudly sobbing,
Tears, too tired to fall, simply whimper
Within the folds of my eyes
And my mind, this crazy bitch of a mind,
Growls at the night
Howls at Fate’s perceived cruelty
As I try to find the light that would end
This darkness within me
Lo that I could remain a mountain
Beside the torrents of my mind
And the whipping winds that scream my name

Memory

My kingdom is calling
The stars have decided it’s time-
Trumpets line the streets of my home;
As this carriage guides me back…
Time is but a resilient friend
Echoing truth and lies,
Peace and strife,
Passionate longing and oh!
Time’s soft kisses lodged within my
Heart
Take the darkness that seeks me
To a damp hole where I can lay
Underneath this star laden sky
And count my memories

Inner Child

Smiling so big, so bright
My love returned to me
From the darkest corners
Dusty and hopeless
She emerged, frightened
Confused, unsure
And I held her hand as she healed
From the pain
And she joined me at my throne
In my temple
Beside my heart
Smiling now, she giggles
I can hear her footfalls echo
With laughter
The return of me! How blessed is
My heart, my soul, my very being?
For her return signals an end to night

Secrets

The morning whispered softly
In my ear, of possibility
And of pain
She showed me the rising sun
Luminous and radiant
Covered by clouds of rain
And thunder
Behind darkness remains still
The light
Behind claps of thunder
Are songbirds singing
And children laughing so innocently
There’s nothing that cannot be turned
Within this mind, time is eternally
Shifting, and with it- all light and dark
Blend into one-
Experience is but a word, to cover
Wisdom’s soft secrets

Surrender

The sitting was so natural
Me and the stars & darkness-
Like two friends,
Whispering in the summer evening air,
Secrets spilled from starry lips
As we sat, upon the curb,
So quietly, so intimately….
You showed me the truth of time
And I smiled, inside a flutter,
My chest beating and full of fear-
Just over and behind
Lay a countenance I remember
As time surrendered
To the salty air-
Remain for me, I’ve no one else
To guide me…
As I merge over and over…
And finally surrender…
Save no pity for me