I would give them what they needed so I could get what i needed in return
But it was never fully the truth,
The true me…
I was forever living inside
someone else’s box
Acting out their reality- the one they had for me…
The one they needed me to be….
And I would pretend-
And learn to appreciate the cage,
for the safety it provided…
Sometimes I would overcome me
and then I would get out…
they would get mad when I got loose,
they’d have to chase me back inside-
But I always went back
The box had become my home
Tag: poetry
Opening
The opening of this heart
Was slow
As pain oozed
From the depths of
Darkness
And secrets crept out
From the dusty
Corners of night…
Yet the strength of this
Heart was heroic
For in it’s acceptance
Came a bounty of light
And light gave wings-
Such wings to fly!
And though this heart
Remains grounded
It dreams of stars
And soars open sky
who?
Though I linger among
The dying
I am not yet dead
For light flows through
This heart of mine
Waking an immortal
Soul
From slumber and depth
Such that I don’t
See who this person was
That endured as me
anymore
slow bleed
my body is dissolving
into energy
as rain falls so seldom
upon my heart
and longing is but a slow bleed
wasting away all that
was light
stardust
the quiet lingers in the air,
thick and heavy…
it’s very essence pregnant
with an unspoken knowing..
this peace that weighs so
dearly upon my heart,
beating in unison with some
divine understanding,
allows light to shine through
cracks and glowing skin to alter
into crystalline stardust…
and while this peace may leave me
humbled and without words
i would lose myself to the nothing
that hovers about
just for the chance to find such freedom
within this beating heart
healing
I am made to heal
The fates have spoken
And my ears
Hear into depths
The purpose is clear-
My heart, a white light
Instrument,
Forged of pain and suffering..
Has flown into darkness
And been touched by the fire of pain
And yet survives…
For the peace we search for
Remains within the self
Each of us a lantern
Shining within despair, cutting
Through anger, until all that’s left
To see is love
Releasing
soul strength
i remember so much from those
times when i just
got back
and my soul was thin
but strong
and i was shattered…pieces of me
thrown up on the floor
and left for later-
how i long to tell that me
that it would be okay,
that i would find peace
oh broken, broken me
sobbing in the corner, quietly-
hoping that i might find relief…
soul strength has nothing
on that which I find in myself-
for love in place of fear
receives ultimate forgiveness
lost
I’m thinking of you
And wondering if you can feel my lips
Glance your neck,
My arms feel your back,
Am I dreaming, or what?
I can see your heart as I speak now
And there’s nothing that could hold
Me back from you
I feel you because I am inside you
Let me shine in your heart,
Now as we are apart, so you might come
To remember my scent
bound
My soul’s soul
A friend from the stars
To earth
Guided by a pact made before
We arrived
To hold hearts
Interlocking love
You are mine
I am yours
How did this take so long to see?
Love is a word that does
Not do justice
To our fate
bound by elementals
And moonlight
My arm is yours for all this
Wandering life
going down
I’m scared to be with myself
I am scary right now
I don’t know right from wrong
I’m going down
This plane is crashing
And I’m in the cockpit
Oh how my heart suffers
Knowing this is it.
How deep does the falling go?
the SIBYL'S SONG 