Tag: poems

Claim myself again

My heart is dripping-
Drop after drop, just spilling
Pain and wonder onto the floor
At my feet…
Where has joy run to?
Hope is but a four legged fool
Running ragged amidst the spring flowers-
And what of me? This spilling, drip-drop,
Keeps me up at night….
In darkness I wander,
In darkness I cry, alone,
wondering why
The light is gone from my eyes
And the breath from each beat
Of my heart
Spilling more onto my legs, my feet,
Down these eyes
Until I cannot take anymore…
But each day, the sun will rise, I suppose,
In spite of me-
And I will greet the day
Wet with the night, with tears from
This heart of mine
Until I can claim myself again

Darkness

Heaviness sits upon my chest,
This breast, difficult to breathe,
Like darkness is washing over-
Deep waters drown out my certainty-
This suffering lingers yet, loudly sobbing,
Tears, too tired to fall, simply whimper
Within the folds of my eyes
And my mind, this crazy bitch of a mind,
Growls at the night
Howls at Fate’s perceived cruelty
As I try to find the light that would end
This darkness within me
Lo that I could remain a mountain
Beside the torrents of my mind
And the whipping winds that scream my name

Memory

My kingdom is calling
The stars have decided it’s time-
Trumpets line the streets of my home;
As this carriage guides me back…
Time is but a resilient friend
Echoing truth and lies,
Peace and strife,
Passionate longing and oh!
Time’s soft kisses lodged within my
Heart
Take the darkness that seeks me
To a damp hole where I can lay
Underneath this star laden sky
And count my memories

Blue

Quiet blue lingers between us-
Disappointed blue; masking all the pain-
A sea of aching blue;
Without words the suffering calls my name….
Latching my breast, suckling joy and light-
Feeding, hungry, so malnourished….
This hated blue: steel, cold, beckoning-
Holds me, and locks me in…
There’s no breath to be found
….Or light-
You’re endless blue is calling me
Your head sinking as your arm comes up
For help
Would that I could save you
And me
From this suffocating blue-
But you’re swimming in your own ocean
And I am but a small speck upon
A distant shore

Concession

Within the darkness of my heart
I heed the words, whispered
So lightly, so quietly-
Calming, and stopping and deep;
Expanding into green and blue
My eyes wander through folds
Of time and space
Searching for those answers
That elude the waking self..
Would that I could lose myself
To the changing tides, rolling in and out;
To the spring wind, releasing hidden flowers;
To the darkness that could take me
Elevate me, joining me to divine..
Such that i am, mortal yet, in this life
I linger just on the edges of this divide
Hungry for concession

seas

The door opened quietly
And my breath entered through it
Softly, deeply, healing-
Searching the depths of my soul
For the wisdom that lies in every cell,
And floating within the golden dawn
My heart pumps blown kisses
To every part of me
Peace flows through my sails
As I wander these unconscious seas

outside

situations and expectations
knock at the door of my energy-
though willing to love,
my heart needs space to breathe;
so though I hear the tap, tap, tapping,
the feelings of disappointment,
the lingering sobs that stop the night air,
I cannot let you in just now
for I am spinning, circling my own soul
for answers that only silence can provide…
with unconditional love, i leave you outside
just for a little longer
as i merge over and over
with my own heart