It’s not yet dawn and
my dog is softly snoring on my leg.
My eyes try to rest
but these thoughts of you
that run wild within my heart
linger loudly round me;
It’s dissonance to my soul
and allows my heart no peace-
Love knows no time and cares not
for respite or release;
So I hover now between, wondering,
what I could have done differently…
A plague of the heart as dark as
the night outside my window-
My only consolation is that I know
by the songbirds that dawn is near
Tag: pain
beating heart
Even if I go away
I will still hear it-
That ever so steady
Beating of the heart I broke
And tried to piece back together
With masking tape and glue
vampiric love
I turned my head and saw the marks
On my neck, where you once fed
Though I’m not dead
I hang on yet…
Holding this thread of reality
Between my fingers
Grasping the last bits of
Reason… and trying to make sense
Of why willingly
i accepted your feeding
darkened harkening
oh to wish the quiet of my soul
be louder than the chatter
of my mind
yet i fall behind
always looking for that which
avoids me
missing the larger view
such that i annoy me
a longing for what I
cannot say
I strive to find a lifetime of answers
in a single day
what shortcuts can i take?
I repeal myself
as my eyes look towards
an eternal sky and i know
that I will not find that
in which i search
until i delve away from my waking mind
and into the depths of the
darkened harkening that
silently awaits me
quicksand of quick fix
I walked a tilted floor
Trying to get back to you
But I just kept slipping
Away
The ground beneath my feet
Slanted and sliding
Ever moving and unsure
Wasted me
A quicksand of quick fix,
Not withstanding pain,
Lingers yet as prison
Upon my brain
And I wait for your heart to capture
Me as I fall away
As proof that you’re still true
To a soul that’s enflamed
basement of hidden truth
Bobcat crawled out of the
basement of my dream
Hung onto the top stair
pleading with me.
I shut the door
Swore, and urged him to go away
What he was showing…
I just couldn’t let myself say
So I woke up with a pain
In my breast, beating chest,
And regret for things that
That lay hidden between
There’s truly no letting go
When things are left
To linger just below-
The basement of hidden truth…
a more tender energy
my task now is to let go
say goodbye, good day, farewell
and let the universe
try to fill the empty spaces
with light
this calling of my heart
to understand the part i played;
my doing : undoing mixed
together- this flow…
i let go
heaviness sits upon my soul;
striving to be free from the
confines that bound it
to you- the links
back to me
i release all those things
i thought to know;
trying to make sense of
that which draws deep pain
within my soul
and with love, and on my knees,
i plead to the universe
to take that which i lost
and replace it with
a more tender energy
my last to you
You once asked me
if my feelings fade
and I told you my heart,
unlike the moon,
doesn’t wax and wane
I am constant…
I know your heart
and it’s need for change
and it’s unrelenting search for
that which destiny
Ordains
….Unconditionally always was a tall order anyway…..
relationships work two ways-
and a dose of honesty
between us was all
I ever needed
and would have cherished
all my days.
Alas… though, now all that’s left is to fade away.
painful sorrow
There is just a sadness
That lingers on the flesh
Like dew
and it wont go away, or dry up
Or change into something new…
It just simply sits there
Moistly on my skin
Reminding me that I am
Not soft to touch
But slick and slimy…
And foul with painful sorrow
lost a friend
I lost another friend today
He was kind and funny
He was dark and morose
He was in love with our friend
For as long as I could tell
He fell into darkness..
I saw him when his collar bones
Stuck out so far from his neck
That they looked like skis
And his face bore the mark of death
I visited him by the beach
As he rid himself of the poison
That haunted his blood stream
And dreams.
I kissed him tenderly and cried
And tho I lost touch with him
He never left my heart
Or my memories
Of his laugh… or the goofy way he
Smiled
Find our friend now and kiss her
As you always longed to do
For she’s been passed over
Maybe waiting for you
My friend.
the SIBYL'S SONG 