acid running through my mind
trying so desperately to hide
from the things you did, from the ledge
i stood, from the place i slid
from the callous use you made of me
the way you took, and i couldn’t grieve
because i didn’t know
that you were wrong, i simply believed
that it must be me
so I took the drug, and hid from all
the unhappy memories
i set up walls, and bridges to fortify me
but it didn’t work, and i was lost
and i’m still reeling from the lack you
caused…
Tag: nature
darkening sky
it was a 2am party raging
while you slowly took me outside
the grass was cool and i could
feel the dew on my back
you didn’t really give me reason
and besides, i was too high to understand,
though i closed my eyes for just a moment
and you were there, on top of me,
and before i could scream
the pain billowed out
and there was nothing I could see
but the darkening sky
will you?
Do you love me enough
to wait for my broken mind
to mend?
Do you love me enough
to decide to start over,
try again?
Do you feel for me like you used to
even when the storms
rage within?
Will you choose to love me
Until the end?
a lucid dream
I was pushing a carriage
down the road
The bright yellow sun
bounced off black pavement
Such that a silver film glowed
almost that the ether was breathing vibrancy
And me I was in control
my heart and mind together
a continuous flow
Like a brighter reality
I ran with one hand
Pushing this carriage down the road
duality
the quiet in my mind
is only matched by the
screaming of my heart…
I long for the day when the duality
that lies within my soul
be replaced by a singular
self acceptance
river
There’s a river of forgiveness
that resides just within
my mind’s eye;
I can see it
as it peacefully flows down
to soothe my heart
from the fire you left behind
to touch the stars
It’s still dark yet- not quite dawn
And I can hear the song birds
Getting ready for the sun
And I know that you, well, you’re gone
It’s okay…
you weren’t really all that real anyway
More of a tune I made up in my head
A longing that you filled
Inside my heart- a sweet desperation
To touch the stars
magician
I loved a man desperately
and that desperation made
me believe that truth was illusion,
and illusion truth.
A slight of hand, and my complicit
willingness to disbelieve
what lay right in front of me,
burned my soul to ash.
Beware of magicians who come
dressed as ordinary men.
holes
You ask for my decision
Will I give you what you need?
I hesitate blindly
Knowing that I am too broken
To fill your heart with light
How can I catch rainbows
When my net is full of holes?
the SIBYL'S SONG 