Tag: lossoflove

vampiric love

I turned my head and saw the marks
On my neck, where you once fed
Though I’m not dead
I hang on yet…
Holding this thread of reality
Between my fingers
Grasping the last bits of
Reason… and trying to make sense
Of why willingly
i accepted your feeding

thankful to you

now that i can see
the secrets that in front
of me have dangled
Softly
i am free to love more fully
with the understanding
that what was, while not real,
still held lessons for my soul,
to help me grow, into
the person i’m meant to be.

my last to you

You once asked me
if my feelings fade
and I told you my heart,
unlike the moon,
doesn’t wax and wane

I am constant…

I know your heart
and it’s need for change
and it’s unrelenting search for
that which destiny
Ordains

….Unconditionally always was a tall order anyway…..

relationships work two ways-
and a dose of honesty
between us was all
I ever needed
and would have cherished
all my days.

Alas… though, now all that’s left is to fade away.

a compass that points in one direction

Looking back now
I realize I held on too long
to the illusion of you
instead of seeing your
bitterly cold reality

Smoke and mirrors-
that’s your heart
and your truth
and what you leave
behind in your wake…

I feel such morose pity
for you-
Empty, suffering, lost-
A compass that only points
in one direction…

I wish I knew , what I know
before I launched myself
into your heart;
a fire I will not
recover from quickly

painful sorrow

There is just a sadness
That lingers on the flesh
Like dew
and it wont go away, or dry up
Or change into something new…

It just simply sits there
Moistly on my skin
Reminding me that I am
Not soft to touch
But slick and slimy…

And foul with painful sorrow

goodbye love

It’s a game you play
With my heart
And it causes me great sadness
To the point that I am leaving
All this behind

I would rather spend a lifetime
Chasing dreams
Than another moment
Running after
Illusion

You are simply too much
For my heart to endure

mirrors don’t lie

There’s nothing more to be gained
By holding on
What was once forming
Now, like smoke, drifts in the air

And I would remain here, too,
Inhaling your divine incense-
sustaining thought and feeling-
But, that I know your truth…

Mirrors are never good liars
And I see your reflection
In my own minds eye;
Your smile brings pain to my heart

My uneasy mind now let’s you go
With the understanding that your
Soft words and smooth flow
Find other ears to softly caress

so it goes

~so it goes~

This ringing in my ear
is reminding me that you are gone
from me now-
And that is how it should be….

And I accept this; save for the
emptiness in my heart that longs
for relief and the pounding in
my chest, echoes of broken….

There’s nothing more you could do
to hurt me, cept take away that which is yours,
(once perhaps mine)
And give it to another.

A world of karmic consequences
mock human feelings
of love and loss….
What is soul to one:
Is simply spirit to another.

So it goes.

i am finished

~I am finished~

Hate floats below my smile,
masking deep pain boiling
just below my throat;

A line through time is binding;
each end a new beginning
held by two…

But where is my end? When do
I get to pull myself this way
And that?

The heart can only take so much
dissonance before it breaks open
and releases…

I am finished

smoke and debris

~smoke and debris~

i will let you go now, also,
as the tide that rolled in, flows back to sea;
and i am the beach that you caressed
so lovingly , while you spread over body
and filled the spaces between

the moon pulls you away from me now
and I accept the absence with
what could have once been longing
but now, only an emptiness that
cannot be filled

you say goodbye to me, now,
not with words, but with lack…
what once glowed with unfurnished flames
now lingers as smoke and
debris