Category: shaman medicine

Journey to my foremothers

I was cold and I went down a dirty staircase
Coming up the other side I felt deary
Butterfly flew past me and birds
I wanted to find my grandmother
I wanted to understand how to heal
the relationship with my mom
Her mother was there
They showed me the unhappiness that lingered in the family
Grandmother senior had a cold and distant husband
And grandmother had an alcoholic
And mom had a cheater
And the anger that she felt
Shaped me, suffocated me
I was frightened and full of fear-
Collapsed under her dark cloud of anger

I understood that the pain she lived with lives with me too
The fear she felt from the cruelty of her parent’s toxicity
resides with me
And that I can heal my family line
By healing myself of this pain
My fore mothers are with me still
Shining a light even in darkness
Showing me another way

And it felt like popping and glowing
This release of energy, deep and profound
Healing- deep and releasing
I let go of old stored feelings trapped
Beneath… popping and dancing off my skin
And peace blossomed in the painful areas
As understanding shined through the darkness

On the shadow side

I was on the shadow side of things
Cloaked in purple and hidden
An owl was with me
She reminded me to look deeply
And see through the darkness
I heard a woman’s voice
Crying for help- like an echo
Help me – help me
And I washed her in purple light
And told her she was safe
Masks are being removed
As the veil between grows thin
And the deeper into the shadows I go
The fuller I find to heal


The wind calls to me
Singing ancient tunes from far away
My heart hears the words,
Whispers of lifetimes past,
And she is exalted beyond the veil
To see, to feel, to be!
And the earth, she holds me in her womb
As the music plays and rustles
My heart, she sways
Rooted in and lost to the echoes
Of what was and remains still
Within the beating of this moment

Nothing but me

Fear used to harm me
Like a dark shadow I’d run
Eyes closed trying not to see
It followed me to the darkest corners
Until I would scream
And then one day fear caught up
And grabbed my heart
And stopped my mind
And I fell beneath the shadow of him
And all I was afraid of- saw me
All sense of time and control gone
I saw fear… behind his mask
And saw that nothing was there,
but the face of me

Lifetimes merging

Through the looking glass
I saw her
Smiling at me
Bright eyes
Indifferent and longing
But she was a water sign
Gentler and less resolute
Feelings made of glass
And anger that could cut you
She had a circus crown upon her head
And stars in her eyes
Her smile ran through me
And I knew then that we were one
The energy of knowing
Melted lifetimes into one
For a brief moment I felt she saw me too

Show you peace

This energy that opens is furry
And fuzzy and light as mist
It takes me humming into a more
Real system than I have seen
Buzzing through me I see
With glowing eyes colors and transpondents
Watch the waxy covering peel away
And what remains is steadfast

Clarity exists within the folds of what was
And what is to be
Light energy
Washing away with silver droplets of glowing
Water, slowly caressing skin as a river
To the bolder
Show me the way to this salvation
And I will show you peace

A journey

I went down into the earth-
dug down and through
Emerging in a lake- rising in the air
Shaking and gyrating
Until the bear and fox caught me
Grandmother fire- making a rattle
Sitting like a tree, brown and withered
Grandmother earth- giving and smiling
Fire consumes flesh
As fear fades away
Handing me the rattle- passing passing
Smiling, sitting- brown like a tree stump
Brown like the earth I dug through
Don’t leave, though I will remain
As you go, you remain with me
Sound your rattle, uplift these ears
Enliven this heart
Stillness is the way.