I am full of pain and anguish now
For that which I held close
Is gone from me
And that which held me close
The push and pull finally over-
I am left in the middle of the fray;
Alone, with nothing to guide me back
But myself, on my own,
And who’s to say i cannot fill my own space?
Yet, still lingering, hovering, below my emotions
I wait for some sign to guide me past
All this business on love…
And into some field of light again
For I am lonely and quite sad
What is this hold upon my heart
that keeps me tied upon this throne
of the past?
What creates within me this desire
to remain steadfast
even in the face of logic?
What is it about you, dear one,
that locks my feet in place
refusing to move away from you?
I long to know your secrets, and what
you could possibly have to bind me
so to your spirit…
I will linger here, but a while longer,
in hopes that all will be revealed
and clarity show me the way.
If not for this ringing in my ear and
the longing in my heart
I would not understand a thing
i miss you- your voice, your touch, your light
i miss the way you brush your hair out of your face
and your laugh…
i miss you- simply, because you
are no longer here with me
yet your essence- it lingers in my memories
i miss you- and will try to turn off these feelings
for fear that i would drown into them
and sink down into misery
missing is a game that i cannot win
nor should i long to try
i will let it go like smoke or wind….
I saw black wings
Flying towards me
And green grass falling
Your touch reached me
And comforted my soul
Taking darkness and turning
It light… flashes of purple
Sing now to me
As I settle into the cushion
And give myself over
~so it goes~
This ringing in my ear
is reminding me that you are gone
from me now-
And that is how it should be….
And I accept this; save for the
emptiness in my heart that longs
for relief and the pounding in
my chest, echoes of broken….
There’s nothing more you could do
to hurt me, cept take away that which is yours,
(once perhaps mine)
And give it to another.
A world of karmic consequences
mock human feelings
of love and loss….
What is soul to one:
Is simply spirit to another.
So it goes.
~lost to time~
I can no longer search for you
behind closed doors…
You aren’t hiding, but
instead just simply vanished
from my life…
And to ignore this fact
Is to ignore breath itself
Gone from me is your golden
Lost to the sands of time we
find ourselves again, sifting slowly
away from wence we came
The pain and longing that I’ve
known so well… through myriad
Lies within my heart yet again.
I will not search for you because
You are not mine to be found
I will simply gaze heavenward
For a glimpse of your heart
When I am lost or feeling down
My eternal star; lodged within my breast,
Lost to time