a warning

to those people who prey on pain
who languish within the hardship of others
just to escape their own dire existence
I pity you…

your gossip and snickering
might seem like a valid escape now
but make no mistake
karma never forgets

what we dole out, we receive
what we do upon another
we will have done to ourselves
if not now- soon…

there is nothing that goes around
that doesn’t come back
in some way, shape or form
so be warned…

too dark to shine for you

i am sorry for the pain behind your eyes;
hidden by the lines forged once by smiles…
i am sorry for the weight upon your chest;
a place i used to lay my head…
i am sorry for the push and pull of confusion
that has dragged you this way and that…

i am sorry that i cannot be
what you long for, what you need, what you deserve,

my failure is only outshined by my despair.
i just keep asking… how can i hurt one who has been so loving?

i am sorry my heart lies here broken
….by those who came before you…

they say that the gold that fills the cracks
of broken vases only makes them that
much more valuable…
would that I could be your gold,
and fill your broken places
with light…

alas, i am too dark to shine for you…

Field of light

I am full of pain and anguish now
For that which I held close
Is gone from me
And that which held me close
Is leaving

The push and pull finally over-
I am left in the middle of the fray;
Alone, with nothing to guide me back
But myself, on my own,
And who’s to say i cannot fill my own space?

Yet, still lingering, hovering, below my emotions
I wait for some sign to guide me past
All this business on love…
And into some field of light again
For I am lonely and quite sad

what is this?

What is this hold upon my heart
that keeps me tied upon this throne
of the past?
What creates within me this desire
to remain steadfast
even in the face of logic?
What is it about you, dear one,
that locks my feet in place
refusing to move away from you?
I long to know your secrets, and what
you could possibly have to bind me
so to your spirit…

I will linger here, but a while longer,
in hopes that all will be revealed
and clarity show me the way.

If not for this ringing in my ear and
the longing in my heart
I would not understand a thing

i miss you

i miss you- your voice, your touch, your light
i miss the way you brush your hair out of your face
and your laugh…

i miss you- simply, because you
are no longer here with me
yet your essence- it lingers in my memories

i miss you- and will try to turn off these feelings
for fear that i would drown into them
and sink down into misery

missing is a game that i cannot win
nor should i long to try
i will let it go like smoke or wind….

black wings

~black wings~

I saw black wings
Flying towards me
And green grass falling
Your touch reached me
And comforted my soul

Taking darkness and turning
It light… flashes of purple
Sing now to me
As I settle into the cushion
And give myself over