Category: Poetry

Unresolved emotions

~unresolved emotions~

Unresolved emotions bounce
within me like a pinball;
each ricochet more deafening
than the last

And I long to be rid of these feelings
of these uncontrollable bedfellows
that have made me
their unwitting, unwilling host

Each emotion, raw and tender
to touch, explores my body,
my mind and my heart
with distrust and longing

There’s no hiding from that
which lives within my heart-
clouding my vision of what’s to come
and blocking my way forward.

These bouncing pinballs of pain
cannot be ignored any more
than I can ignore breath or sleep…
or the misery that comes with knowing uncertainty.

New moon blessing

~New Moon blessing~

I give myself over to divine protection and guidance;
I submit my body to you, oh lord, that you might move me in your will and your way;
I long to merge my energy with your abundance
And I will follow your guidance with my heart…
Whatever will come for me, I will accept with grace-
And what is not to be I will release with love
Oh lord I pray for your divine forgiveness of my past mis-steps and mis-deeds…
I submit myself to you now with a full heart ♥️

in time

From the depths of space and time
the universe will bring us back;
this undying love,
that transcends all physical planes
and energizes spirit
like a thunder cloud and bolt
of lightning…
This has been ordained
and I believe that all will come
as scheduled and in time

All will be happy.

Pain

My heart hurts
what to do with this pain?
I cannot eat it
to make it go away;
It just lingers within my chest
like a weight,
constricting my breath

Fear

This fear sits in my belly
And boils
Turning my lunch upside
Down and inside out

It blocks my eyes so
I can only see it
Like a jilted lover
Or an old friend

And I long to be rid
Of this pain ; this
Poisonous feeling of fear
That hovers.

But there is no escaping
My gut of what it knows-
I am not good enough
For peace

guilt

~guilt~

deep and unforgotten pain
crawls up my chest
as the guilt of my actions weighs
upon my heart, heavily

this slithering feeling of regret
winds its way, like vines,
into my heart, choking the light
from my soul

there is no relief from the dark
and solid night that lines my chest,
my body, and my mind
…a woe-begotten life….

I keep looking for a lining
that might make the clouds not seem
so bleak to me
but guilt is bedfellow

not to be taken lightly….